Smiling Outside Broken Inside

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Many people walk around with big smiles on their faces, but they are broken inside. They muster enough strength to make it from day to day; yet they live dysfunctional lives. What’s inside is coming out one way or another and no amount of fake smiles will stop it. Most of these types of people don’t understand how they willfully hold themselves in negative states of mind.

Think about this; the only reason people are sad, hurt, angry, bitter, full of hate, pain, sorrow, etc, etc is because of something they haven’t let go! It always goes back to something! People need to figure out what their something is so they can leave all of the negativity behind them once and for all. People are burdened down because they hold on to stuff they should of let go.

Believe it or not, people get comfortable feeling the way they feel no matter how depressing it is. They are familiar with their pain. What they don’t understand is they have the power to control their own lives and stop giving power to the memories of their pasts and their thoughts. It is always what’s holding individuals back.

A lot of people would rather fake their way through life then to deal with what is really bothering them. Smiling on the outside when you’re hurting inside does nothing to help a person deal with their issues. It keeps people stuck right where they are. Many people think they are alone when it is furthest from the truth. No one in this world is going through a brand new situation someone somewhere hasn’t already dealt with or is dealing with. I know it doesn’t change the fact you may be going through, but it does mean you’re not alone.

We all have gone through things and will continue to go through our peaks and valleys for a lifetime. If a person doesn’t deal with what they have suppressed or pretend doesn’t exist it makes it harder to deal with those other things life unexpectedly throws at you.

As I’ve always stated; many are in this world full of negativity then they make decisions to bring children into the world raising them to be exactly like them. It is a sad thing and it is why many of the children grow up to be dysfunctional adults. People need to deal with their issues and make conscious decisions to break the negative cycles in their lives. If they don’t they will continue to go through life exactly the same way. It’s like a hamster on wheel; spinning fast yet going absolutely no where! Stuck!

To change starts with you the individual. You can blame all day, you can point the finger all day, and you can complain all day. At the end of the day the decision to change falls on you the individual. A smiling face is a beautiful sight, but it’s a super sad situation when it’s on the face of a person who is broken inside. Pretense does nothing at all to help a person heal and move on from their pains. Stop giving power to your negative ways of thinking and choose to break chains and cycles. It’s something a person has to do for self and it can only be done by the individual who needs it.

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In Control or Controlled

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I’m referencing people who allow themselves to be controlled by anyone or anything. I can take the truth, because the truth never changes. I would rather be hurt by the truth then a lie. A lot of people don’t want the truth. They say they do, but they don’t. Many people find it difficult to accept the truth because it will normally mean there’s something wrong they need to right.

Anything that has a person tied and tangled up has control over them. If something or someone controls you it means you don’t have any control over self. People shouldn’t give their power to nothing or no one!

This world has many people who are in bad situations because they are controlled by something or someone. For instance when we see people commit terrible acts. They’ve thought on it for a while until they’ve given power to those thoughts. Then the feelings are developed, afterwards the act is committed. They allowed themselves to be controlled to the point of consumption by their thoughts due to the power they gave them. Everything starts with a thought, feelings, then actions. The difference is when people are in tune with self and love self, they are not allowing themselves to be consumed by any negativity. They will dismiss it no matter what or who.

People who allow themselves to be controlled are people who have unresolved issues. The many unresolved issues causes much chaos in their lives. I know some people are thinking “everyone has issues.” Listen, I agreed. However, the difference is are you controlling those things or are they controlling you? That is the big difference! Yes, we all deal with this or that, but how we allow it to affect our lives makes the difference.

You may disagree, but I know it’s fact. Individuals who are allowing those issues to control their lives are people who haven’t healed. They are carrying around their baggage day in and day out. It’s affecting their relationships, decisions, choices, thoughts, feelings, and behaviors. It leads them to making bad relationship choices (getting with people for the wrong reasons (sex, looks, what they have, who they are, the position they hold, titles, trying to save/fix other broken people when you are also broken, etc). It leads them to getting with the wrong people (already in a relationship, married, underage, abusive, slothful no ambition, etc, etc). It keeps them in abusive relationships, controlling, obsessive, possessive, etc). It keeps people chasing after the flesh (in all kinds of ways = sex, money, fame, becoming addicts (sex, money, drugs, alcohol, fetishes, etc). It leads people into doing unthinkable things such as commit murder or suicide, road rage, etc; because they are emotional, angry, bitter, confused, hurt, etc. etc). They haven’t dealt with their issues and they don’t love self. What many people fail to understand the more they add to their already problematic lives the worst things become. It’s hard to deal with new issues you’ve adopted when you haven’t yet dealt with the old ones.

People must heal and learn to love self. If people don’t get past their pains they can never move forward to become healthy minded and properly functioning individuals. Their lives will continue to be on auto repeat. They will keep making the same mistakes with similar but different people. They will continue to look for things in others they don’t even possess within self. Their relationships won’t work. Their relationships may continue, but they aren’t healthy. People are in loveless relationships and are lonely as can be. People are staying with people who don’t love them and people they don’t love, because their seeking something in others.

I can go on and on about it. The reason individuals are controlled by other people and/or things is because #1 they haven’t healed from their pasts and #2 they do not love self. You can’t have one without the other! It leaves people lacking esteem, confidence, having trust issues, not knowing how to show affection, not knowing how to communicate effectively, depending on others, seeking security, seeking love, etc.

People are very quick to blame things such as alcohol, drugs, etc for their problems. No, no, no! Those things may amplify, magnify, or intensify problems, but something happened to cause a person to begin those things in the first place. Whatever it was/is; it is where the problem truly lies. Truth is people hurt themselves by becoming addicted to those and other things. Alcohol and drugs affects the mind, body, and soul of individuals who are controlled by it. Some people think because they are functioning addicts they aren’t addicts. Wrong! Anything you can’t do without has power and control over you! People can’t gain control until they heal self and love self. A person can pretend all day and they can put on a smile, but it doesn’t fix their issues. Pretending keeps people right where they are!

People who are harboring their own issues haven’t learned how to love self. They will take whatever to be with someone. They are influenced, manipulated, coerced, and persuaded to do things they don’t want to do. They go along to get along. They get involved with things to have a sense of belonging. They put up with ridiculousness and they take disrespect and mistreatment on all levels. It’s because they haven’t healed and they don’t love self. A person who loves his or herself cares about their own well being. They are careful as to what they get involved with, who they are involved with, and how they allow anyone to treat them.

Monsters in Societies Around the World

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I know many of you will think I’m off base. I don’t think so! Many in this world are living lies. They know they are doing the unthinkable to children while trying to hide it! They are tainted broken individuals. There’s no other way to put it. I’ve never sugarcoated anything and I won’t start today. In my opinion the reason the sexual perversions are going on in world is the toxicity continues to spread, because people continue to abuse the children who turn into adults who abuse children. No one is healing from their bad experiences. These people are continuing the cycles of abuse.

Sadly, many are in positons of power. Although many are in jobs which allows them authority and power; the power I’m speaking of is from the top. There are a lot of filthy nasty so-called secret societies/clubs were adult people do terrible things to children. If you don’t know then I’m trying to educate you. Unfortunately the foundation of many nations were built by some sexual perverted individuals. Notice I said some! They were/are in every areas of society. I believe this is why so much sexual perversion goes on. There are demands for sex trafficking, child porn, and sexual abuse all over the world. It trickles down to other broken people in lower positions of power. They’ve done things a certain way for so long then the next people in line has kept the cycles of abuse going. I don’t care who it is, the maladaptive behavior comes from the hearts of broken people.

If you research you will find many people were/are into sexual perversion to gain fame and fortune. It goes all the way back to Aleister Crowley and I’m sure even before him. He has taught people how to do the unthinkable to gain fame and fortune. He clearly was a broken man and he influenced other broken people to go along with his ways of thinking; despite how horribly wrong it was.

People from all walks of life are filled with evil and darkness. They appear as good people and portray themselves as good people knowing the whole time they have demons inside, many of which they don’t try to fight. They’ve learnt their ways of thinking, feeling, and acting unfortunately giving power to it. Instead of choosing to be better people they’ve kept the cycles of abuse going. I’ve known or have heard of many people professional and non-professional who have been caught doing unacceptable things to children. They include Generals and all ranks of the military, doctors, lawyers, policeman, teachers, priest, parents, relatives, friends of family, politicians, celebrities, etc, etc. The list goes on. All of it comes from unresolved brokenness! It seems our society is filled with an over abundance of these types of people who continues the cycles of sexual abuse.

It’s a shame and NO matter the reasons why, it’s all excuses. It’s dumb to think to abuse a child gains you fame and fortune. That’s an excuse! These types of people are into Satanic rituals. The bottom line is abusing children is wrong in every single way possible. To look at anyone from infant to any underage child and feel anything sexual means you have a major issue inside of yourself. You need help, because your ways of thinking are VERY distorted. If they are distorted it means they are wrong!

Some parents and other family members sexually abuse their own children/relative. Some do it for money (some will do anything to get money or to gain something else) or they do it simply because it was once done to them. As far as I am concerned, it’s all excuses! As an adult you know it’s wrong, that’s why you try to hide it. To sexually abuse a child or to allow it in any way; something is clearly wrong with the adult. People do it because they haven’t dealt with the demons inside of them. Children abuse children because they are adopting the same thought processes, feelings, and actions they’ve been taught. It’s still wrong! Children have to be taught it’s wrong and helped in order to deal with their issues and break the cycle!

Anyone adult who abuses a child of any age does it because they are broken. They are led by their wrong ways of thinking, which fuels their feelings and actions. Many will abuse until they are caught. Then they tell their sob story of being abused. I don’t take anything from anyone who were once a victim, but I will say; to use it as a crutch or excuse to abuse is an excuse! There is no reason at all to touch a child in a sexual manner. If someone has any type of thought to do so they need to deal with the demons they carry inside. To keep hiding fixes nothing at all. In fact it only keeps people repeating the cycles of abuse.

When will these types of people take responsibility for the monsters they’ve willfully become? Yep, I’m calling them monsters, because that’s what they’ve become! Stop the blame and take responsibility for what you do! You have perverted minds, because it’s what you’ve become accustomed to through years of hiding, lying, and pretending you are one way when you know you are something else. You’ve given strength to your demons to continue hurting others and yourself. It’s awful! People must face their inner selves and deal with those hidden things that have them trapped in their wrong ways of thinking, feeling, and acting. It is the ONLY way a person will change.

People who do these things don’t love self nor do they have the understanding of what love is. They are lost in their wrong ways of thinking. They’ve become so familiar and comfortable with who they’ve become. To them it seems right even though they KNOW it’s wrong. Change will not occur on it’s own, people must acknowledge the fact they need to change. Non one can change until they deal with their demons! The more people hide and pretend the more power they give to their demons to keep the cycles of abuse going. Think to yourselves the REAL reason why you do what you do and there you will find the truth. The one person you can’t lie to is yourself! Despite it all and no matter what; you are responsible for your thoughts, feelings, and your actions!

Is Your Mind Your Friend or Foe

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It is up to us what we choose. Millions of people are trapped in places they choose, but don’t necessarily want to be. When a person has a wrong way of thinking, then comes the wrongs ways of feeling and acting. People are stuck in pasts that no longer exist. Yes, the memories will be with us forever, but those memories do not have to dictate the rest of our lives. Those memories are residual effects of our pasts. We don’t have to be controlled by them. It’s how people allow the memories to affect them that’s causing the issues in their lives. It does nothing but keep people angry, bitter, hateful, jealous, envious, full of malice and strife, unhappy, depressed, etc, etc. No one can be happy with all of this junk in them. A person can dwell on the past all they want, but the truth is all anyone of has is the present. We can live it in or be lost trying to hold on to the past.

Nothing is really what it seems, because most people distort the truth according to how they perceive things. Normally our perceptions aren’t true reality, because it’s tainted by the way we think. If a person is thinking negatively they are thinking the wrong way, which affects everything in the person’s life.

Take a moment to think about your life. Think about where you are at this point. Whether good or bad, think about what has helped shaped you to become who or what you are. Why do you think you’re the way you are? It all goes back to how you think about things. Negative thinking can’t produce positive things. People can pretend all day, the truth always wins. It always appears. Do you know why? It’s because what you give the most power to will prevail no matter how you try to hide it. It shows up in the things you do whether you think they are done in secret or if done outwardly.

Many people are stuck due to their mental states without realizing their biggest problem is self. They are sabotaging their own lives due to how they think. If you’re always focusing on negative thoughts they will take over, then the feelings and actions will soon to follow. This way of thinking blocks many people from becoming the best individuals they can possibly be. This way of thinking keeps people held in captivity, bound, and stuck. This is why people are repeating things from generations to generations. This is why people are doing the same things year end and year out. They do not change their ways of thinking. As I’ve said many times if you don’t change your ways of thinking the only option left is to remain the same! Again I ask, is your mind your friend or foe? You may fool me or someone else, but you will NEVER fool yourself! We are about to enter into another year, the year 2019! Will you choose to change or remain the same?

Holding on to the Past Affects Your Present

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Too many people do this! Many people focus on what has happened. Many people live this way entertaining a life long pity party. They can’t move forward, because they are stuck in the past. A past that no longer exists! It’s true! I’m not ever going to say the past didn’t exist or people didn’t go through what they’ve gone through. What I’m saying is the past itself is just that! It is gone! People must learn to stop giving power to the memories of their pasts. The more power you give to anything it controls you!

Many adults don’t give themselves chances to have the happy and fulfilled lives they should have, because they are fixated on what was! They’ve allowed the memories of their past experiences to control their possibilities for wonderful lives. They ruin their lives by their wrong ways of thinking. They are mad and angry over things that are long over. Hanging on to such junk is like drinking a bottle of liquid self destruction and expecting not to be affected by it.

It’s time people learn to let go of negative things. No matter who HAVE hurt you in the past, it’s you whose now hurting yourself. Your life is your life! All of us can choose to stay stuck or move on. Bitterness destroys!! The more power you give to negative thoughts the more they control you and keep you stuck in negative states of mind.

Some of you may say I don’t know or understand what you’ve gone through. You are correct, I don’t know! However, I know we all have a story we can tell. I do know and understand hurt, disappointment, unfairness, suffering, rejection, abuse, and many things that affects us. Although things may hurt us or even scar us, life goes on. Wounds heal if you stop picking at it! Pain subsides if you stop giving it power! Memories fade if you stop giving them life by constantly reliving them!

Feelings of hurt, pain, and suffering are universal. No one is exempt! People learn to move on by letting go. It’s 100% okay to feel the pain, however; when it defines you and controls your life it’s no longer okay. People who hurt people; are hurt people. Get it? It’s a vicious cycle!

It’s easier for people to believe they have to remain the way they are then for them to believe they can change. No matter the chaos people get content in their old ways of thinking, feeling, and acting. They know change means having to do something different. It means putting forth intentional efforts to be better! If you don’t choose change the only option is to remain the same. No matter who a person blames; the way an individual chooses to be is the individual’s choice.

Choosing to move on doesn’t negate the fact things happened. What it does is it puts the power back where it belongs; in your hands! Never allow someone or something power over you! Learn and gain strength from everything you go through, don’t let it render you powerless. The ONLY power anyone or anything has over you is the power you give!

Memories and Thoughts and the Power you Give Them

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There are millions of hurt people in this world who unfortunately hurt other people. Many people live their lives based on what others have said or done to them. They find it difficult to move forward because they are pulled backwards by their minds; which by the way have imprisoned them. No one can save you, no one can fix you, and no one can change you. The only one who can do it is you! You may have people around to influence, motivate, encourage, or inspire you to want to change, but if the willingness to change doesn’t come from you, the change will only be temporary. People who change to please others will always revert back to who they really are.

There are many people who feel they must be validated by others and because of it they are at the mercy of others. They allow other people to dictate how they feel about self. Those you give your power to know they have it and they will abuse it. People prey on who they think are weak, because the prowler him or herself are weak! They see and feel it in their prey!

Most people are accustomed to how they’ve been all their lives. It feels familiar and comfortable. Instead of trying to change they continue to live how they’ve always lived. No matter how miserable and hurt they feel they continue living their lives the same way. Many people blame others for who they are. I admit other people contribute to our lives in many ways both positive and negative. However, when you point at someone to blame them, you have three fingers pointing back at self. I think it’s a way for us to take ownership of who or what we’ve become.

Despite what a person goes through, despite how traumatic; who a person becomes as adults falls on the individual. People can choose to remain the same or they can choose better than what they came from. When people choose to remain the same they’ve seem to opt out of changing. Sometimes the people who have wronged them are dead and gone; yet people are still holding on to their experiences with the person/people through their memories. Memories are real, how strong they reign inside of a person is up to the individual.

Believe it or not none of our pasts exist today. None of them! We are all living in the present. If people do not deal with the issues of their pasts they are affected for a life time. It affects every facet of a person’s life. Not once have I said the past didn’t exist, of course it existed, but it’s not what we live in today. It is behind us and only the memories of it remains. Unfortunately for many people those memories are very real and strong. People are trapped by their own minds, because they’ve given power to the memories of their pasts. They carry these residual affects throughout their lives. It shapes them into what they’ve become. It’s a cycle most past down through generations until someone breaks the chain.

Many people walk around smiling, yet they are broken and hurting inside. Pretending will never give a person the understanding or will to deal with what’s causing them pain and suffering. People must learn to face it in order to move on. Those who do can go on to lead productive lives. However, those who don’t will live their lives as a revolving door. They will go in and out the same type relationships with the same types of people and wonder why. They will make the same bad decisions and choices and wonder why. They will allow people to take advantage or misuse them and wonder why it’s happening. They will continue to be unhappy which oftentimes lead to other things such as depression and even worse things like suicidal or homicidal thoughts, etc. Not all people will go through those thoughts, feelings, or emotions, but some will, because they don’t understand most times our biggest enemy is self. The power of the mind is beyond belief, but our thoughts and memories are only as powerful as we make them.

Things will happen to us, but how we deal with those things depends on how we receive them, perceive them, and the power we give to those things. We are our own greatest enemy, because we give so much power to negative memories of our pasts which has led to negative ways of thinking, period! The past doesn’t cause people any further pain, people do it to themselves by not dealing with the issues of their pasts. Instead they focus on the memories as if they are present today. It’s like a wound, if you constantly dig in a wound it won’t heal properly and because of the constant manipulation of it, the person could cause other issues. This is how many live their lives. They keep going back to the memories of their pasts. They are trapped by their own minds.

Today is a brand new day given to each of us. We can choose to become better or we can choose to stay the same. None of us will forget what we’ve gone through, but none of us have to be prisoners to our own minds, causing the inability to move forward. We don’t have to give our power to anything or anyone!

Live your life for you first! If you’re not healthy and whole you’re really not any good for anyone else. Sadly many go through life with all of their issues while trying to love others when they first don’t love self. This is proven every single day by people who constantly are in and out of unhealthy relationships or people having children and messing them up from the gate. Those are only two examples out of many.

Learning to become better has to be something a person wants. It starts with the individual. You’re not what or who someone else says you are unless you believe it yourself. No one should ever accept negativity from anyone else. You have the power to be whatever you choose to be. Never settle and think you should be a certain way because of what someone else said or did. They don’t get to choose, you do!

Facing Your Biggest Problem, You

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It’s not him or her, it’s you! Stop trying to hold on to people who have let you go. Stop trying to hold on to a person who doesn’t feel you’re worth fighting for. It means you’re not as important to him or her as they are to you. The person you’re with must think you’re just as important, if not they aren’t as into you as you are to them. Too many live their lives struggling to hold on to people who are NOT holding on to them. It causes unnecessary chaos and drama in the lives of many.

People give their significant others too much power over their lives. They can’t function when the one’s they love walk away or simply don’t really want them. If a person wants to walk let them. Stop taking up space in your mind over someone who don’t even think of you! Some people literally can’t function because someone walked away from the relationship. I’m sorry I think it’s nonsense! It’s only my opinion. I know we’re all different. It doesn’t make sense to me to lose your mind over someone who doesn’t care how you feel.

Many people go through hell and high water to be with individuals who don’t want to be with them. When a lot of people stay it’s not that they want you, they like what you do for them and it’s the only reason they stick around. They treat the individuals they are with like crap, because they are allowed to. You have to deal with the monsters you created. Why? It’s because we teach people how to treat us. Whatever you allow it will happen! When you nip things in the bud people know where you stand!! When you allow things to continue to go on; you let people know where you stand!! The control is always yours, unless you give it away.

There are a lot of people who want to give up because the one’s they love don’t love them back. Seriously? If a person doesn’t want to be with you let them go. Trying to keep them where they don’t want to be will only prove to be a dead end and unhealthy situation. If a person is trying to hold on to someone when the person doesn’t want to be there, you must look at self and figure out what’s going on with you, NOT the other person. They’ve shown you who they are and what they want, now it’s up to you to deal with your feelings and emotions and stop allowing them to lead you in the wrong direction.

None of us can change another person, we can only change ourselves. We have to look at self and determine what we have to fix about self. Stop blaming the other person, because the other person is doing what they want to do. Life will go on even if you choose to remain stuck in place. No one is worth it. No one is worth the heartache or headache. If they want to walk, open the door for them! Same door they walked out of someone else will walk in. The difference should be you’re stronger and have more wisdom, knowledge, and understanding so not to make the same bad decisions again.

Most people look at relationships they’re in one way; and that’s according to how they feel about the other person. Hold up! Remember, you’re never the only person in a relationship, it always takes two! People get caught up in how they feel and fail to fully understand how the other person feels. A person shows you the truth no matter how subtle. People fail to see it, because they are blind by their thoughts, feelings, and emotions of the person they think they love or want to be with.

Stop doing things you feel uncomfortable with, stop trying to be someone you’re not, stop accepting any ole thing, stop allowing yourself to be mistreated, stop blaming the other person and take responsibility and ownership for you and your life, stop worrying about what the other person is doing and take care of you, and please stop giving your power to someone else.

I promise you, if you love yourself it will be enough!
You may feel lonely sometimes, but it’s better than being with someone and still lonely. Being alone is better than being with someone and in love by yourself. Being alone is better than being with someone yet separate, because they are doing their own thing. Being alone is better than being with someone who is only with you because of what you provide. Being alone can be a greater teacher if allowed. Learn to love you and you will see that no one will love you like you and if you love you, you know everything will be alright!

Individuals must learn how to see past their feelings, if they don’t they will continue to get into the wrong types of relationships, with the wrong people, for all of the wrong reasons. Happiness doesn’t start or end with anyone, but yourself; others may be a part of your happiness, but you definitely shouldn’t depend on anyone to bring happiness in your life. You first have to find it within yourself!